Today we are officially moved into the Ronald McDonald House.
Until today, we had been living on the west side of the city in a condo building.
Immediately after Ezra’s diagnosis a family from Grimshaw reached out to us and let us know they had a condo in Edmonton we were welcome to use.
The generosity of this gift meant everything to our family. At a time when we didn’t know what the next week would hold, let alone the next month, we knew we had a safe place to go, to be alone, and work through all that we were feeling.
So, if you are that family and are reading this now – thank you. We won’t ever be able to say thank you enough.
That brings us to today. After nearly four months, it was time to leave the condo. Cody was able to come on his own to Edmonton this weekend and he took home everything but the bare essentials (and now that we are at the Ronald McDonald House, I am seeing he could have taken even more with him). Cody drove with us over to the house, where COVID protocols meant he couldn’t go past the front door, and Ezra and I then moved into our new home-away-from-home.
While there are many perks to being here, like delicious dinners provided for us daily, several family-room-like common areas where we can relax or visit with other families, and just a five minute drive to the hospital. There’s also a lot to get used to like shared kitchen spaces, a tiny dorm-like room, and needing to wear masks everywhere except in our own room.
I am sure with new routines we will make the necessary adjustment, but tonight it just feels like a lot.
There are so many unknowns in this journey we are on, and while I was prepared to leave the condo, it has truly caught me off guard to be feeling so sad about this change in accommodation. The condo felt like a home, as much as it could. This place feels…different.
As for Ezra, he’s been okay. These last couple of weeks of chemo have proven hard on his blood counts and he has required two blood transfusions and one platelet transfusion in the last two weeks. He’s not eating well and complaining of stomach aches, other body aches and headaches.
But, tomorrow marks our last day of chemo for this treatment cycle. Then, on Friday he has blood work that will determine how quickly we can jump into the next cycle.
Earlier today, Ezra did get to play with another little boy at the Ronald McDonald House and that was so special to watch. Ezra is a social kid, and more than anything, he has missed being around other kids.
In clinic last week there was another boy, about his age, sitting in the chair across from him. Ezra must have talked with him when I was in the bathroom because he told me he got to talk with “the kid with the big boots.”
Names are unimportant to Ezra 😉
The two boys talked a bit more before we left, and bonded over their mutual enjoyment of the Nintendo Switch. Then, on our way out of the hospital Ezra, very casually, said “I think I am making friends, mommy. Isn’t that nice. Even though I can’t go to school, I can still make friends.”
Enter the broken mama’s heart. All Ezra wanted to do all summer long was to go to school because Elijah had told him how great it was. Our circles have always been small and so all of Ezra’s friends to this point have been the children of my friends. Most of those children are either girls, or boys closer to Elijah’s age. These friends have been great friends, but I know it’s important for him to make and choose some of his own friends too.
This was supposed to be his year. And even though this makes me sad, I am grateful that Ezra is able to adapt easily to where life has brought him. I am grateful he’s satisfied with 30 minute conversations with kids he may not see again.
We have been on this journey for 114 days, all but nine of which have been in Edmonton. We are hopeful that we will be able to spend a week at home after this week, but that will only happen if Ezra doesn’t make counts on Friday.
Into this week we would appreciate prayers for this adjustment to a new place to stay for Ezra and I. Continued prayers are also appreciated for all of us as the prolonged separation is becoming harder and harder to endure for all members of our family. We have done four months, and are looking at another four months before we can be home more than we are away. We also have some decisions to make where we are finding ourselves needing to absolutely trust God with our finances.
There’s nothing easy about this journey. Every time we feel like we know what to expect, something else happens, or we are faced with another decision, another change, another expense.
So, once again thank you to everyone who is helping to hold us all up. We truly couldn’t do this without you.